I apologize...

Well... I guess this is goodbye.. Not see you later or "until the next time"... The words we just said aren't those of the nature one would want to forgive... But I already do.. Forgive you of course, it's all because I don't understand how one can say they have these feelings and show something else... Our relationship became a routine, something we did because that's what we had been doing and the anticipation of what was next for us disappeared... There were few smiles and plenty frowns, a little ups with a higher ratio of downs... I love you to life but I feel as if I'm just the body that you make love to and not  the soul u once connected to... I feel hollow when I think of you or hear your name.. So having said that was I ever in love?? I don't care if you've moved on or who you're with... I feel no emotion when a story regarding you is being told... I don't get butterflies when I see you or feel the need to make sure I don't look a mess... I don't think of you often, I don't wonder what if, I don't get sad when I hear the song we proclaimed "ours"... Smh... I feel bad that i let us have "post-relationship dealings" and don't tell you that you're just here to keep me from being a "man whore"... Cold?? Maybe but "was I ever in love"?? I don't think so and I sure don't feel anything now and I thought "love" of any kind was forever... I apologize...