Misunderstanding

Soooooo now we don't speak.... And this is right after our relationship hit its peak...
It's cool cause um not gone sweat you... Although you wouldn't be so nonchalant if you knew...
That deep down inside I hold you high on my "feelings" scale... But I refuse to show weakness cause although I'm different I'm still a male...
So I play cool and never speak of my hurt... But foolishly I bend my own rules and on my scale I give only you a curve...
And now um really gettin in deep into my hidden feelings... And again like clockwork with me you slow your dealings...
Now I find myself forcing me to be calus towards feelings.. All because I redundantly chose to ignore the things you were showing
You, you, you, you, you really don't know what you have created.. You let me try so hard and all the time I put in was just energy wasted...
Hold up, why should I feel so negatively for feelings that everyone longs for... Is it so wrong to do the right things and always choose the safe door...
Well...
Now it's over and when I see you there's nothing... Not anger, fear, regret, hate, happiness, or care...
So I guess that means you didn't waste my time after all. Cause now you not even an after thought or thought of for a holiday call...
I guess I misunderstood what my feelings were.. And now looking back with my misunderstanding I must concur...
No love gained no love lost gained.... The only L word I got from you was a lesson....
And for that I must say thank you..