When we first met it was everthing I was looking for... I even ignored and pushed aside other things that struck my fancy, because what was in my face was so engulfing that all else seemed null and void... Yea I had my wants but didn't care, his natural scent became my oxygen, his eyes became my weather: when he cried it rained, when he was away from me it was cold, when he was happy it was an autumn afternoon.. Telling me that my life didn't include him would get even my best friend excommunicated.. My heart was his and I "think" he felt the same... (time passes)
Now that we're moving apart he doesn't want to stay with me and my mind won't function, my eyes won't focus, my body move... (my thought process) I gotta move fast because I can't lose him I won't lose him! So I agree to fall back and "just chill"... So nothing changes we still have the same routine and he still feels like mine just wit no strings attatched... I play it cool but resistence isn't one of my strengths and I bring up "titles" and like clockwork he pulls away again this time, but instead of my plan working again he replaces me with another(tramp)... Now his words are harsh and actions even harsher.. I did nothing but express my want and this is what I get in return? "I refuse to let you go" I redundantly repeat to him as if it will show him his worth in my heart! But now his shoulder is colder and words scarce... Now what do I do? At that moment I had a revelation! I'll bring to him the gift of life without actually having it! He can't disprove, but he'll fall back in love and make me number one again... Empty are his words now, and closed are his ears.. Nothing seems to work and the picture he painted with his feelings is a frameless extinct thought that is the epitome of "you mean nothing" but yet I still hold on as if knowing the girl he's with makes him happy is a figment of my imagination and my heart is still with him.... Tell me why?
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