Is that what it really is?

Tears, loss of appetite, lack of energy, feelings of "I quit" .... Though these are all things that are not desirable we all wish we can live them... Real pain is a feeling that we all low key strive for so that we can build ourselves to be a head strong, tried and tested individual.... It's something that although we all try to deny, we like or love the fact that we can feel sooo low and down that there's nothing left to do but progress.. We seemingly want to feel so broken and hurt that we let ourselves be torn, and we submit to situations that we know will become some of the most painful and self degrading actions ever committed. And yet we still let it go on as if we're oblivious and don't have a care that what's going on isn't apart of the grand scheme to disappoint.... When it all concludes we act like it's new and we didn't expect it to happen and catastrophically effect our lives in the way it does.... So the question is do we make ourselves fools for love or is that how it's actually supposed go?