Let it go... Please?

Instantaneous defense mechanisms built by past catastrophe's that skewer the mind into believing that every future relationship and situation will be a horrific encore... Walls are put in place and ensure that previous pain can't get in and bring back the intense emotions that cause "life" doubts... No one can understand what it takes to get to that point so talking and expressing it won't help the thought process that you maintain from day to day... Time passes and you become stronger and you're able to hide your "real" feelings and you pretend to feel and show someone that you are whole heartedly "THEIRS" while you know that you aren't fully vested because you have walls that you built to keep yourself out of harms way... Now you face a dilemma because falsifying love documents is just as painful and violating as cheating, so how do you go about explaining that you have manipulated the other party involved into falling for someone who you're portraying to be and not who you really are... Heartbreak... We all know that it's always easier said than done, but is scaring someone else emotionally worth still pampering the one's you haven't yet let go? Is it fair to others for you to hold on to the past? Is it selfish to feel like we all should "GET OVER IT"? Think on that.... =^/

Comfortable...

They met a while back and the unspoken unsigned agreement was made called friendship.... Back then it was puppy love that wasn't acted upon because knowledge of the foundation that is being laid is neglected, due to the blindness created by age... A little time passes the bond deepens and the realization of "Like" is introduced and things escalate to levels that they didn't think or know were possible... So now they really have a connection because they both have something that is valuable to each other(hearts).... They grow apart go in different ways and lose track of each other due to space, people, time, or situations that one gets in... More time passes and memories grow less thought of and feelings seemingly disappear into thin air.... But just like seasons that same love comes back around... And like clock work things are mended, apologies accepted and feeling are given new life... They feel stronger about each other now because they're in a comfort zone that gives them the ability to trust faster, be more sexual, make things official and disregard the "dating" code... Things go rotten and arguments become the majority of the relationship they jumped in, and they start being absent to each other mentally and physically which brings accusations and more arguments and a harsh environment... Now they are cold to each other and nothing is left but to break up and cut all ties.. They do and time passes... Then they do it all over again as if the first time didn't happen... SMH.... So now insecurities are created, walls are built, and mazes are made for ones who want in on they're lives outside of the one who helped build them... So the question is do we want to be comfortable at the expense of being happy? Or do we do what our (emotional)heart says do rather than gathering all the facts and using that solution as the map to "our" happiness?