Why I stay...

I have an astigmatism when it comes to seeing the hurtful things you do... Your greatness, tho it seems only I see it is what over powers me and helps me come up with excuses as to why I stay... Yea you call me out my name sometimes and get random attitudes that come from places unknown to man, but yet I find a reason to stay... I know they don't see the good you bring out in me but I do and I love how it feels when you make me smile, so I search for something that will help me stay... Though the tears you bring are the billboard for the pain you frequently cause me, I know that you give me reassurance that it's love just as many times, which is why I make up something to say as to why I stay.... You've done the unforgivable and tho it hurt me to the point where I knew I was done, I knew you was gone come back and be regretful and genuinely show remorse, so I gave myself a morally demeaning repetitive excuse to stay... Love conquers all, they don't have understand why or even how come just know that I love you and you are who I choose... If you don't see a future let go, but if you do then work thru it and learn to forget things that will linger and affect the relationship in the long run... If it makes you happy it's worth it or do you think it's not?

In the beginning...

Long summer nights spent wasting breath about the beautiful things that make us unique... Timeless kisses that lasted forever but still felt as if they were cut short.... Seductive touching that was more intense than a million dollar deadline, yet it seemed as if we couldn't get enough of that "pressure".... Recap conversations that refresh the mind into a state of bliss from which you don't want to return but you know you gotta go to bed cause it's getting late(floetry).... First morning thoughts are filled with how the rest of the few hours you spent away from them went, and you can't resist the temptation to ask "how'd you sleep".... They never say the wrong thing always in the right tone and you're never left wondering what's going on... A smile so powerful you can't help but return the favor... A stare so sensitive you can't help but return a tear... A hug soooo good you can't help but to hold on a lil longer... A hand sooo strong you still feel it's warmth when it's moved.... A new passion so tasteful that it's the only flavor you long for... Do you think this is how love begins? Or is this a smokescreen?

What would you do?

Forbidden thoughts flood the mind and make impossible aspirations seem easily attainable... But complexity is the common ground in which the situation sits... "Should I"(s) fill the atmosphere and those are undermined by "I can't"(s) because history has written rules that are seemingly meant to be obeyed and often broken... These things make for a realistic imaginary scene performed by major conflicts of interests... Past relationships hinder the one that wants to be made, coupled by the fact that someone in the surrounding parties have the same if not stronger interest in one of the participating "persons".... Although the one "he/she" has the strongest interest in is off limits they still have made an unspoken agreement to limit their intimate dealings to fantasies and cordial phone conversations... Can a friend be found in such a scenario or are the attractions too great to risk all the feelings of the surrounding persons? Can they really bury what is known and coexist as if things were never explored? So the real question is: is there such a thing as choosing what you may feel can be real love over a friend? And is it ok?