Finger Pointing...

He never told me I was beautiful so I don't feel that I am and "self" esteem is non-existent. I never feel pretty or have confidence because "he" wouldn't assure me that I was pleasant to his eyes.
She never said "I want you to tell me that I'm beautiful" so I never to the initiative to express it that often, or even at all. She never "does" anything to make me feel as if I need to express those type of thoughts or feelings.
He used to be a cheater and though he doesn't give me reasons or commit suspicious behavior the things I know about your past won't let me be completely trusting in him.
Her insecurities make me wanna stray, I know how I used be but the past has zero to do with our future and I do everything in my power to show her that I'm a changed man...
He doesn't like my friends because they're all single and rarely have anything positive to say in regards to my relationship or him and when they come around an argument almost always follows my encounters and rendezvous' with them. I feel like I can't drop my friends even though they make my relationship with him hard to maintain.
She doesn't understand that I hate having to compete for her. Her "single" friends don't care about the well being of me and her, I know they try and convince her to stray thus giving me certain insecurities that cause me to feel compelled to start arguments and accuse her of things I know "may" not be true.
There is always of two sides to a story and always rights and wrongs. But what do you consider a bad recipe for a healthy relationship? Do you do things that are detrimental to what you are trying to build with your significant other or do you blame them for what's going wrong?

I know, but I want...

Thoughts are consumed with actions swayed. I did you wrong and I can't function knowing that I haven't done everything to right my wrong. You won't receive my attempts claiming we've been here before. I won't lie these lands are very well known and traveled all too often, but I know you are a good thing and that's what really hurts and makes me want you even more. I know I didn't think of you when I would "do my thing" or "hang with friends" but expected you to always think of me... I know I cheated but that's not something I do I just had a "minor" slip up. I know I flip the script when you do the same things I do and make it out to be unacceptable.. I know that you wanted all the things I said I wouldn't do or consider but I couldn't change just yet cause I was in love but not that in love... I know that you've shown me that you love me in all the necessary ways but I can't yet do the same things because I just got to the point where I can trust my heart with you.. I know you're at the end of the road because I couldn't tame my tongue , but I guess I am a little selfish... And I know now that you are not mines, I want you more even than I did when you were at my "mercy"... I hate that I have placed myself in in the cliche of "good things when they're gone" but I'm worth another chance... I'm sorry I manipulated you into loving me but I couldn't fall for you just yet cause I had baggage I wasn't willing to throw away.... AlThough you are hurting I want you back so that I can stop stop hurting and be happy... Is this the epitome of selfishness? Funny how we don't see selfishness when it's us.. Would you try again?