I know, but I want...

Thoughts are consumed with actions swayed. I did you wrong and I can't function knowing that I haven't done everything to right my wrong. You won't receive my attempts claiming we've been here before. I won't lie these lands are very well known and traveled all too often, but I know you are a good thing and that's what really hurts and makes me want you even more. I know I didn't think of you when I would "do my thing" or "hang with friends" but expected you to always think of me... I know I cheated but that's not something I do I just had a "minor" slip up. I know I flip the script when you do the same things I do and make it out to be unacceptable.. I know that you wanted all the things I said I wouldn't do or consider but I couldn't change just yet cause I was in love but not that in love... I know that you've shown me that you love me in all the necessary ways but I can't yet do the same things because I just got to the point where I can trust my heart with you.. I know you're at the end of the road because I couldn't tame my tongue , but I guess I am a little selfish... And I know now that you are not mines, I want you more even than I did when you were at my "mercy"... I hate that I have placed myself in in the cliche of "good things when they're gone" but I'm worth another chance... I'm sorry I manipulated you into loving me but I couldn't fall for you just yet cause I had baggage I wasn't willing to throw away.... AlThough you are hurting I want you back so that I can stop stop hurting and be happy... Is this the epitome of selfishness? Funny how we don't see selfishness when it's us.. Would you try again?