Communication or lack thereof....

Dried tears tattoo my face as I reflect motionless in my bed staring at the ceiling, making shapes that resemble your face from the little pricklies that stick out of it... I replay the moment that you demolished what we had with the words "baby I have something to tell you"... Knowing that what followed that conversation starter would be the worse news our relationship ever heard I reluctantly asked "what happened babe?"... Sarcastically, I listen intensely like I don't know you're about to describe how you violated the trust that I bestowed in you wholeheartedly without hesitation... Then you began to speak and before you got the first word out my ears filled with some kind of substance that made your words sound like a tv with the volume on zero and no captions... I just knew that you cheated and didn't wanna hear how it went down so I emotionlessly stared in your eyes while you talked never looking at your lips so I couldn't hear or read what you saying... Eyes get blurry from too many tears built up and now I can't even see you clearly.. I leave saying nothing or even acknowledging you... Never actually listening to what you said after the convo starter, I proceed to the "heartbreak" process and begin beating myself up mentally about what it was that I did to make you feel like you had to stray.... Time passes and out of curiosity I ask "what really happened" and you say "I just wanted to tell you that I love you and wanna take it to the next level"..... Damn..... Insecurities..... Communication is the master key to the success of relationships... Do you get it?