Father, or much less than....

The strongest form of hate and disdain, emotion filled with what isn't reciprocated... All you want is a football tossed but when roll is taken an absence is always tallied... Small lessons are never taught by the correct instructor so interpretation is left up to the student... "Left out to dry" becomes an expectation and normality... There is no role model worthy of replacement because love and the strength in "wanting" makes all wrong null if the smallest of actions are taken... "I hate you" eventually becomes a feeling more so than an expression and advancement emotionally is thwarted by lack of what was a necessity to help understand all the "why's"..... Yet love is still present deep down... Painful... Just do better... FFT