In hindsight...

I wish I hadn't felt that inexplicable urge in my chest region caused by the time I spent with you, but if I hadn't I would have no clue what love is, so thank you....  I shouldn't have believed you were who you imitated when we first met and became accustomed to each others daily selves, but if I hadn't I wouldn't know I was capable of letting my guard down, thank you... I hate that I believed that you felt for me equally as I did you by virtue of the things I saw and felt, but if you hadn't shown me I wouldn't know that I could trust, thank you... I despise letting you cause me a pain so unreal that I still haven't found the answers for, but if you hadn't I wouldn't know that pain leads to growth, maturation, and ironically understanding, again, thank you... You look so different now, well actually you look the same, with different features, still beautiful, warm, and unknown... It wasn't you that changed it was me learning who I really am, so thank you once again for giving me a mirror... FFT.. 

You vs You...

Residue of a love once known still resonates subconsciously on your new found want for progression... Lost in the midst of all the could be's you retreat back to comfortability, all the while knowing the same pains would ensue.... It's logical to you because new wounds aren't something you're too fond of... Re-aggravation is your choice... Rugs and dirt.... Cliche...  Is it you or is it the lack of you caring for you? Too hard to decipher between what's a solution and what's the actual issue... While its true that you can only play the cards you're dealt, the way in which you use the lessons you've learned, recognition, reactions, and knowledge of the issue faced is a key to the door of forward... Also known as progression... FFT..